it's been a year and a day since i last blogged in your presence.
2010 is a whirlwind of challenges, meant to make one stronger but some stains just won't go away...
What is the most vivid memory of you? I was asked.
Being at your bedside, cleaning you up solemnly.
Something that i never tot of sharing with my siblings.
Have you ever seen someone being burnt from within?
Tt's the painful flashbacks that still raise my heartbeat now.

It's nice to stay near her. Not that I visit her often but a crematorium by the reservoir always gives a tranquil peace. The serenity she gives which I finally learn to appreciate.

Haven't seen you play the piano for a long while. I was told.
Indeed, i was just occupied with work or perhaps, trying to maintain my impassivity.
But there is always time for you; and time for a little tears.
A breath of relief; and a breath for yet another day of battle.

Rather than contemplating the next chess move, sometimes we just have to let go to receive what awaits us at the other end. This optimism is a rare find which I ain't too keen.

I'm not comfortable revealing this but yes, you have been missed..